days before D-day

Right, it has been awhile...I was busy with school stuffs and exam...Well, exam is coming to an end by now, and I can definitely smell freedom. haha. XD I have not been blogging for quite sometimes, and I guess it is time to post some stuffs up ...

Majlis Penghargaan PSS 09- We attended it just around two weeks before the exam. The food was not too bad, but what we enjoyed most was that we got to capture pictures with teachers and friends. We even got the chance to take photos with our principal ...XD.

Ing. Mag 09- Right, after months of waiting, we finally got our pizza vouchers. So, Pizza Hut here we come! There was some miscommunication between us and the waiter. According to the voucher, each voucher is redeemable for a personal pan pizza. But, we ended up having a regular pan pizza each =.=///, for we used up all the vouchers. Gosh, luckily we had not eaten lunch earlier, and we managed to finish FOUR regular pan pizzas out of the FIVE...there were 6 slices of pizza in a pan, so in total, 7 of us ate up 24 slices of pizza in 2 hours. Then, we got Adrian, Lennard, and Lai who came to pass by to finish up 3 more slices and we took back the remaining 3...==Yes, it was indeed unforgettable, but we ended up having pizza-phobia for a month...

Photoshooting 09- Gee, I will surely miss school...XD I hope the plans after exam is not merely "angan-angan mat Jenin" lo...Or I must as well just get myself shot to death...==

Bitter sweet

Trial ended on 28 September. After struggling for nearly a month, at least now I can relax for a short while before preparing myself for another big challenge. Anyway, my results were not so satisfying, maybe I was overconfident about myself, or maybe I wasn't good enough to score higher marks, but it surely disappointed my parents. How am I going to survive the competition when I can't even pass the first fundamental round? And how can I compete with other candidates when I can't even get a good result? Sorry for I can't be satisfied with such a result, for I don't want to fail those who have had high expectation on me, and I just don't want to be a loser. I promise to try my very best, and now I fail to keep the promise. I think I have learnt a lesson by now, so all I can say to myself for now is "GIVE YOUR BEST SHOT!"

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Mid-autumn festival for this year was full with activities. I enjoyed it no doubt. Ha! Hanging out with all xueji friends and schoolmates, it was totally fun! We "youngsters" lit candles, BBQ, played with tanglungs, sang and danced the whole night in a kindagarden. Then the next day, I went to Jubli Perak for a small gathering with my mates. It was tiring for I had a camp meeting from 1am to 4am and I had only slept for 2 hours in the early morning, but anyway, I enjoyed it. hehe...

"I love you...^^"

明天会更好

手指在黑白键里跳起了华尔兹。随性吧，不愿去拘束。摘下那憎恨世事的一面，任音乐带领心灵寻找最真实的自己。她微微摇摇头，陶醉其中。夜晚，她就在这属于她的小小房间里弹着自己喜欢的抒情柔和音乐，幻想自己梦寐以求的天堂。那里没有乔装舞会，人人都以最真实的面目亮相，所以不必揣测他人的表情与感觉。

人人似乎都爱笑，只是笑声背后是否带有他意，那又是一个有待质疑的疑问。每句话中话，她听了多少；每句借口，每句讽刺，每句谎言，完美得毫无破绽，她听多了却唯有忍气吞声，想揭穿却束手无策，结果最终受罪的还是自己。没人懂，而她也认为没这个必要大肆张扬。骗子，大骗子！心里大骂之余，却无能为力……

她静静的弹着弹着，脑海里隐约听见了儿时那天真无邪的清脆笑声。怀念，想往一个充满爱的世界，没有明争暗斗，没有尔虞我诈。

她没有停顿过，一直都在弹着，把所有的不满怨恨随着高低音符宣泄出来，而疲累的心则在暗暗的祈祷着—明天会更好……

Back to school

Dui. After having exam on Wed, Erica took 6 of us in her car back to our primary school. It was somehow like a gathering or rather reunion of 6M(2004) for 'wu lao shi' retirement, the teacher whom we feared and respected the most. haha...

She was happy no doubt, upon seeing all of us. When we arrived at 1.45pm, some had left for they had their things to deal with. Moreover, they had been there since 1pm. Verney had given teacher her DIY souvenir book, compiling all the notes and letters from us. I didn't have the chance to glance through the book, but they convinced me that nothing really special about the letters as basically, all of us wrote the same thing, about her dedication and strictness during the old days. Lol...

We chatted with our old school mates, recalling all the good times together. Many had changed and I hardly recognised them at first sight. haha..0.0...Most of the guys had grown so tall that I must raised my head whenever I talked to them. As for the girls, I didn't manage to see all of them as some had left, but they too had changed a lot.

After taking group photos, we gathered at the canteen where we filled our rebellious stomach. We talked and laughed as we ate, as if we were living in our own world. XD...I think we did irritate the workers in the canteen, for they threw us an odd, annoyed look at regular time intervals. But, none of us cared about it anyway. =.=

Haih....I do miss the old days dearly...haha...

Thumbs up XD

I just have to blog this . =.=...I can't find a single perfect word to describe my feeling right now. ha ha. Amazed, stunned and speechless. Imagine it, a guy with 2 voices!

When I first listened to Nick Pitera singing "Don't Stop Believing", I thought he had a twin, for there were two guys in the videos, though they looked the same, they were wearing different shirts. One guy looked feminine a bit O.O, and he sang the soprano part, while the other sang the Male's part. =.= It was not too long that I ultimately found out that the duo were actually the same person...OK, I thought, he looked gay ...haha...and when I listened to his "A whole new world" and "Run" (by Leona Lewis), I thought I just got to blog it ...It was totally undoubtedly perfectly AMAZING !!!

From what I know, he is a countertenor and he used to use his falsetto to freak people out. Right, it doesn't really freak me la, just that I am amazed by his ability or what others regard as "talent". LOL >.< Any song production company who hire him will surely save alot of cost, for they don't have to hire another female singer to duet with him XD...

Many Thx :)

This Ah Loo a, so sui 1...(or am I the one who is sui???) ...=.=

I had Sejarah paper 2 and Moral paper as my 17th birthday present this year. The most unforgettable birthday for the time being...haha...Yeah, the last place I ever wanted to be for my birthday is of course, being in the exam hall, sitting for trial exam ... XD

Anyhow, the travail has ended, well, at least for now, for there will be no more swallowing Sejarah text books till wee hours in the morning (AT LEAST for now la) ...

As for those who brightened up my day during the torment, Thank you sooo much...

Thx u papa and mama for the Twilight saga
Thx u my dearest friends for the lovely presents
Thx u grandmas, aunties and uncles for the angpows
Thx u aunt Carol for calling to say "I Love You" and "Happy Birthday" though I was speechless at that moment and only manage to "en...en...en"
Thx u CT for the creative multimedia SMS, and also for the cups (CT: You fear that there is not enough cups in my house hor? haha)
Thx u WY for walking all the way from the back of the hall to the front just to wish me (I know you seldom do that... XD)
Thx u ZW for the overseas' SMS from Singapore
Thx u my bro for the ignorance (you holiao ...)
Thx u all my friends for the wishes on net
Thx u all my friends for the wishes through SMS (though I don't really know all the numbers XD hehe)
Thx u GT for forgetting my birthday in the morning and remember it in the afternoon (=.=)
Thx u CX for the insincere birthday wish (^@^)
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And lastly, Thx u my dear cousin TAN TZE HON for forgetting my birthday again after confirming it with me few days before....(Kononnya nak SMS ku ~) hahaha...

Seventeen's

"Steve just want to grab all the attraction...that's all"

So Ibrahim's drama team has won again !!! (Not too shocking since I have expected that ...) haha ! Ya... and they will be proceeding to the national level competition very soon in Penang. So let's cross our fingers and hope for the best...

Ok. Right after the state competition which was held at school, we went to Seventeen, somewhere located in Lagenda. There were 10 of us (8 from the previous team and 2 from the present team), and we were there not to celebrate the annual winning, but for a farewell party instead. VJ was leaving to Sarawak, and we were throwing him a party. All of us went there either in Steve's 26-year-old antique or Jordan's equally-old-roundabout. Haha... As I said, we should never judge a book on its cover, and don't you underestimate Stevie's as you won't know how smooth it can go without "coughing and chocking"...

I never went to Seventeen, never even heard of it. (Newcomer then...) We chatted about old times when we were in the team, how naughty and how playful we were. When Jordan eventually mentioned the quarrel between him and Joycie on the bus when we were on our way back from Keat Hwa II after the state competition practise, I just couldn't stop laughing..."Shut up...""No! you shut up, pervert..."...It was a drama itself on the bus and to be blunt, the fight entertained us...=.=/// Jordan had a strong memory no doubt, because he could really recalled the incidents occurred all the way from school to national level, the small and not-too-important events that happened which most of us had ultimately forgotten about it.

After having lunch, we chose to "loiter" around the "guest room" where there were sofas, tables and TOYS...Never-a-grown-up as always, we started playing with it. There were a Paris tower miniature, a rocking chair, Mickey mouse boxes and even the lantern above us had not been spared. Lol...We looked like a bunch of insane people-talking, playing, laughing and capturing pictures nonstop in the very small space allocated, totally destroying the romantic and peaceful ambiance in the simple and small yet classical enough restaurant...haha...We are destroyers at our own admission anyway.

It is always nice to have a good friend, someone who can pop up at the right time to give just the advice we need. And I guess I am lucky enough to have a bunch of them. They will have to leave one day, but they will always be in your heart, no matter what happens. So Vijay, you have chosen your path, so all the way is all I can say. Best of luck to you !

"Jordan's the luckiest guy on earth"

Note: Be happy and be envied. :P

PS: ...

Dear me,

Sometimes I do wonder, how long it takes to learn to put all your weight on your toes...(Yeah, just like the ballerina up there.) Sometimes I also wonder, how long it takes to be like Leonardo da vinci (though I know it is just DREAMS...=.=), to be able to produce such a masterpiece that has received compliments throughout the world for centuries......... Yeah, there are always "sometimes" whereby we would stretch our imagination beyond the world of possibilities, into a world full of glorious successes...But ultimately, it is just a fallacy. Easy successes only appear in dreams. Bear that.

Life is so unpredictable and full of obstacles. You may think it is a piece of cake, but obtaining success is never as easy as we think. Success never worth having coming easy, right? Confronting a problem enquires skills and emotional balance. It is by the way you handle your hard times that you reveal your personality and wisdom, whether you are a respectable person or the opposite. Throwing tantrum for reasons of your own not only makes things worse, people may also think that you are a sore loser...

It is not the failure that matters. It is the courtesy to rise again when you has fared badly that determines everything. More often than not, the outcome depends on our attitude itself, and it has little thing to do with fate.Well, nothing happens without a reason, so instead of sitting there grumbling about all the unfair judgement, instead of putting the blame on others, why don't we accept and endure the ordeal like a gentleman, and prove to them that they are totally wrong for underestimating us by actions and not merely by empty words?

You are lethargic for all the workloads piling up on your desk, but do think positively. You get closer to the finishing line whenever you put some effort into it... :) Good Luck !

PS: Be strong. Let bygones be bygones...

The one you see in the mirror,

Yourself

Vampire power

I am not one of those who like to watch movies or series too much. I not into tat honestly...And I usually don't enjoy too lengthy novel, since the ending of the story is usually the same after all, whereby the guy and the girl will always live happily forever...bla bla bla...

I can finish a thick novel in a day of one or two if it favors me alot. I can stay awake the whole night just to read it till the very end. I will just get obssessed with it, and that's when all the problem begins. I can't concentrate myself on anything else except for the plot, and I will just allow my imagination being carried away by the story...

Right, It is all about Twilight then. I don't read the novel at first, though my schoolmates are all obssessed with it. It is a trend in our school for the time being. So eventually I watch Twilight online after a constant recommendation from my friends...and I get deeply in love with it... and I get myself the first book...and I start reading it...and watch the movie again and again...and surf the net for reviews and everything I can find about it......bla bla bla...=.=///

It is about romance no doubt, between a vampire and a human, and he is a very good vampire to be exact...haha...so, Thumbs-up!

Anugerah Cemerlang 09

Well, Sultan himself came to grace the prize giving ceremony this year. It had been 5 years since I last seen him. (This is just so unfair.......Why he did not come last year ????!!!) They concurred that the ceremony was very grand this year compared to the last few ones, but anyhow, I was in no mood for discussing and comparing that. HA!

Right, we got to "ponteng" for lunch in KFC. 6 boys, 9 girls... At first, we planned to walk there ourselves, merely for fun, but TBL and LYW agreed to fetch us there later on. The guys had attended school for the choir performance, and they were in no hurry to go back home. So, we had TBL and LYW as our chauffeurs, while LZW KMY LKT and GYF as our bodyguards, for they were on motorbikes, riding alongside us... (Thx ya...haha) For a fleeting moment, we girls thought we were just like the Sultan... =.=///

The boys, kind of choosy, did not feel like eating KFC, but prefered Pizza Hut instead. So eventually, they waited YWen to swallow up all her food patiently for she would be going back home in yen wei's car, and headed off to central square together. ^^so Pizza for boys, and KFC for girls......

The ceremony was no doubt boring, so while the VIPs were busy giving their speeches, WY and I chatted happily in our own world. LOLzzz... We talked about dresses, shoes, bags and also uni-life--eveything about tomorrow...(Well, this is what girls usually do...-- Dreaming.)

I really don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I surely like my yesterdays.^^

Ing Mag 09

Kind of tired these days, only "exhausted" can best describe me for now. Haha.

As usual, I have not had MY HOLIDAYS... (Geez, I am merely a student, but I work day and night as if I am a multinational company CEO or general manager...haih) I think I really need a break...

We had our ING Magazine designing discussion for 3 three consecutive days during the holiday, starting from the second day I came back home. It was tiring, yet meaningful. All of us were rookies in the sense that we didn't know a single thing about publishing a magazine. We tried our very best at first, flipping through every magazine we had in our hands, surfing the net for all the articles and guidelines we could find. It was quite a tough task, for not only that we had to write our own article based on the facts we managed to get, we also had to design our own unique cover and arrange the components ourselves, so ultimately, we started to laze around, using the internet service to the fullest by chit-chatting online, checking mails, and of course, FACEBOOK !!

Yi wen nagged at us, haha. She went on and on, forcing us to finish our jobs on time, asking us to quit wasting time...Well, her persistent nagging did work on us. We got on our feet and started working hard again... haha.... and at last, it was a job well done. ^^Cheers !

Madam Jacqueline said she was satisfied with our masterpiece when we passed it up on the first day of school. She even promised to nominate it as one of the best magazines which will be sent for state level competition.It trully warmed our hearts, for we were so scared at first that we might not be chosen...hehe...

So, let's just cross our finger and hope for the best...

"The only prefect who can smile merrily at the handphone..."=.=///

Off to Bangkok...

Right, this will be my first English post. Anyhow, just ignore all the silly or grammatical mistakes la k....he he...
Bangkok...31st May 09
So here we are in the Suvarnabhumi Airport, hungry and thristy. Yet, we are quite exciting though. Having departed at around 5pm, we reach bangkok international airport at 6.45pm sharp. We check in at the hotel and later on, visit the night market...

Bangkok...1st June 09
Today, we visit the Safari World, in other words, the zoo. o.O... Like many other zoos around, there are birds, tigers, lions...ah...For me, it will surely be a no-no to visit zoo. Right, before we enter, the guide put a sticker on each and everyone's shirt, just to differenciate "zoo member" and "visitor" i think... We watch the dolphin show, sealion show, cowboy stunt show and orang utan show. To be blunt, i don't really enjoy it and almost doze off while others are clapping aloud...perhaps it is due to the fact that the shows are quite similar to those which i have seen years ago.

Bangkok @ Pattaya...2nd June 09
Everyone is energetic today as we are visiting the Menam Chao Phraya Floating Market, or so called "the East Venice". We are so eager at first that everyone aims for the primier sits on the boat...It will be a brand new experience for me i guess, but it is clear that my smile fade as the boat start off...What i can see, is merely three boats with goods---and that is floating market??? Oh Ok...I am speechless for a moment, the East Venice i have imagined is definitely busier and noisier, with long boats making their ways through the narrow lane, with customers and sellers bargaining the prices...We stop by at Wat Arun, the temple of Dawn. it is a temple aged more than 200 years and it is situated on the river bank.

We have lunch at the Tiger zoo as we are on our way to Pattaya. The food is quite nice, and with the tigers smiling at us somemore, it is fun! LOL. Dad says the tigers are so happy seeing us there, since some of us have a round tummy and it will make a great and tasty meal for them. The Pig race is cute, and i m quite amazed that the pig actually know Mathematics! when the guy say "Barbeque, 3 + 3 equals to...?" in Chinese, the pig will ultimately pick up the plate with number 6 inside. It answers all the Mathematics questions given by us in perfect scores, so Humans, you should feel ashamed if u fail your Mathematics...=.= You are worse than a pig if so...
After watching crocodile show which i find it not too interesting, we head for silverlake garden whereby we have the opportunity to see for ourselves the mountain Buddha, the world's tallest Buddha image carved into the side of a mountain, a masterpiece of the Department of Geological Resources and the Asian Institute of Technology.

At the Nong Nooch Village, after watching the cultural show which includes thai boxing, dance performances, drama and also the elephant performances, we have a stroll down the botanical garden, a heaven with lush greeneries and vibrant blooms. The weather is windy, the sky is blue, and I thought I am in a wonderland...

Pattaya...3rd June 09
Coral Island here we come! Oh... I just love the sea, He he... It takes us 30 minutes to get to the destination and we have to embark a motorboat in order to get there. I sit near the tip of the boat, along with mom and another family. It is adventurous no doubt. Bumping up and down, it is far more fun than roller coaster, and it pays too. Haha! we almost get a heart attack as everyone fears that they might get into the water...Oh ya ! I have my first parasailing. Soaring high in the sky, i feel just like an eagle, and i can see the world up high in the sky. Fuyoh !! I don't bathe in the sea, as the sun is shining brightly and i surely don't want to get sun burnt.
Later that, we head back to Pattaya and visit the world's largest Gem Store. The gems are elegant and beautiful, but apparently they cost a fortune, so bye-bye is all that I can say...

Home Sweet Home...4th June 09Hoho...we are going back home. The plane is delayed for nearly 30 minutes and we reach home at about 7pm! Tired...But since it is mom's birthday, dad plan to go out for dinner at 8pm. Everyone quickly get themselves ready and guess what, I accidentally close the wooden door and so, we lock ourselves outside of our own house. GREAT! We get all the tools and equipments we have and try our best to open the wooden door using lever concepts and all other physics concepts...In short, we are breaking into our own house...o.O Finally, we get into the house, and dinner is delayed for one hour ... Mom's unforgetable birthday present... lol...

蓝色祝福

消息来得匆匆，我原本还以为只是一个玩笑，但在子祥自己苦笑一番，我终于知道，这玩笑一点都不好笑。那天，班上只剩下六名华人，其余三名早已在朋友祝福下，参与壁球比赛去了。

去怡保居住不是他本人的决定，却已成了一个必须接受的事实。他说，若他可以选择，他选择留下，而我们也明白，这里对他来说是他的一切。离开我们，他已有心里准备，然而突然要离开他，我们一个个都措手不及。

星期日他把转校消息告诉我们，星期一他到怡保打理一切，而星期二则是他在依中的最后一天。难以置信，却无能为力，唯能听天由命…星期一当天，趁着他不在，我们收集了整个中五朋友想给他的寄语，把其放入一个蓝色瓶子内，打算送给他留念。时间很紧凑，然而可贵在于没有一个人没有交上寄语…早上上课前分出去的纸张，全部在放学前的那一刻成功回到我手中…这瓶寄语由我负责，偷偷的翻阅他们送给他的寄语，心里诚心祝福我们这年的友情会维持到毕业后的生涯…

当晚我们华裔生在The Sense为他举办叙别会，为这么一个朋友饯别。有补习的朋友都在补习后赶来，即使累坏了也坚持出席，心中告诉自己不可错过告别的机会。我补习后赶到，从他们口中了解我错过的环节，有心酸的，也有值得高兴的…凯文代表我们购买了一架手机送给他，嘴里不停的叮咛他必须与我们保持联络，像个老爸嘱咐一个即将远行的孩子一样。

我们一同歌唱，有人哭了，送走一个朋友往往是一种割舍，更是一种遗憾。而他当晚也有一个遗憾－他，根本没有说声再见的勇气…说声再见，从来就不是一种简单的事情。当你踏出门外，转身离开的那一刻，早已没有人能够担保大家还会有再见的时候。虽然口口声声的说，中五后的我们会再相聚，可是与其把它当作是一个承诺，不如当作是一种真心祈求…

星期二的天气依然晴朗，可我们这里弥漫着忧伤的气氛。把蓝色瓶子与我们这一班为他购买的蓝色礼物盒连同礼物送给他，他微微地苦笑起来。我们说那瓶纸张全部写着对你的怨恨，他稍微点头说OKOK。他走前还不忘针对我几句，我说你走后，我更快乐，至少少了一个针对我的坏家伙，然而我在寄语上写的是“你臭人，拍拍屁股就走人了，丢下Reiner来欺负我…”。

他走了，走得镇定、从容、安静，恰似蓝色的象征…

ICC

差点就这样忘了自己曾经参加过ICC。参与的营员近一千人，认识的却不到四十名。真的，7天时间内，我连队员都已会认错了，若再逼着自己去记住别人的名字，我想，他们也会被我弄得团团转。

Claudia是香港的代表，庆幸认识她这朋友。哈哈。比我年长一岁的她，成熟稳重，从容淡定，少不了几分美女气质。她刚参与我们，就已为我们这一组出了不少力量，为我们想口号、队歌，帮忙中二的组长带动整组，难怪她成了香港圣越翰救伤队的组长。组旗由我，Chicken和巧恩负责，我们还满意自己的作品的，除此还有机会认识他们，与他们成了一伙。

7天的行程不紧凑，除了有认识自己队员的机会，也少不了与丽杏婉宁分享一切的空闲时间。最开心的时候莫过于我们玩无聊儿童游戏的时候，类似猴子捉球，只是这里的猴子捉的是被叫出名字的人。也就因此次起，没有人知道我的名字叫欣佩，全部人都以佩佩（培培）这小名称呼我，而实说，我还真喜欢这别人为我取下的名字。哈哈…

我们这组的感情很不错，会互相关怀与照顾。和颈很颈，像只老鼠一样，不时溜到名彦那组找寻同“溜”合污的同党。我没机会逃跑，因为队员爱找寻我，我一不见踪影，人人便会找寻我，不然就在我“回巢”的时候，叫巧恩来质询我…呜…

Purple 3 ...

节目有Obstrucle Training，Jungle Trekking，Water Rafting，High Rope，还有永春武打练习。看到永春，联想到叶问…啦啦啦…看到Jungle Trekking这词语，就想到我们到瀑布游泳的时候。冰冷的溪水，却阻挡不了人人大显身手，“跳水”…swt…我也随朋友游泳，却避免不了冷得格格发抖。在水中也冷，上岸也冷，真是来受罪的…哈哈…他们男生还在岸上追逐，连Chicken Dance dancer也被他们丢下水变成落汤鸡（wet chicken）了。吃了两支冰棋淋，我组的Chicken说他怕水，我的脸不时露出三条黑线来，原来这187cm的小子还有怕的时候啊…

巴士上，亚罗士打的朋友们不时讲冷笑话，嘴里唱着《当你孤单你会想起谁》，眼睛不时看着阿Sir，然后突然很有默契的喊声“Coco!”，整个巴士哄堂大笑，只有一个人嘟起嘴巴，两手叉腰的看着我们…遇上在戏剧州赛弹奏的吉华二校朋友，滔滔不绝的交谈起来，连男生在帐篷里睡觉的情景、露营时应带的人物等…可以说6小时的行程是在欢笑声溜过的，当然免不了责骂与挨骂过程…

看着Claudia送我的衣服、钥匙吊饰、名片和手腕，想起我说过我会在我去香港的时候找她，心里暗笑起来，决意把她照相机里的某人查个水落石出来。哈哈…

吉打队伍与代表…

我的家，在哪里…

久违了这家庭，再回来的时候，看着一张张似熟悉似陌生的脸孔，心里愧疚和无奈的感觉油然而生。愧疚在于我履行不了我的承诺，常常回家；而无奈在于这段友谊就这样，一再地与你我檫肩而过，即使挽回得了友情，却也挽救不了尴尬的局面发生。傻傻的对着他们笑，嘴里却叫不出名字来。心里总是酸滋滋的，错怪我在走出这家后，头也不回地坚决离开，眼里在乎的只有理想抱负责任。

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同样的四天三夜，同样的地点，我很努力的去寻求当年最初的感觉，找回当年的年少轻狂，随他们蹦蹦跳跳，载歌载舞，然而心里总是那么的不踏实。去年同一伙的朋友，今年怎么不见人影了？或许大家累了，也或许大家真的没法出席…

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人生本就有悲欢离合。当年叙别会相拥哭泣的那一刻，其实我们早就应明白，这很有可能已是一个永别，而嘴上挂着的承诺根本只是一个安慰自己、也安慰别人的谎言，那么的遥不可及…当大家檫干了泪水，走出那一个阴暗的房间的时刻，其实我们应明了，他们早已从新振作起来，背起包袱，勇往直前的前进了。

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我不会挽留，更不会阻止，只希望大家还记得我们彼此间曾经有这么一个承诺…

加油了，朋友…

我可以！

第一次参加槟威大桥长跑。第一次新手上路就报名了25km，我对自己的选择还真惊讶的。

长跑前一 天，我们到Queensbay mall和Gurney Plaza闲逛一番。吃了Baskin Robbin冰棋淋，还与靖婷他们看了两出戏－High School Musical和Magdagascar 2，还真够爽快的。我们住在Gurney Plaza附近的公寓里。我们中四的共有四十几人，挤在一间公寓里，有点水泄不通，却少不了之间和睦与温馨的感觉和画面。

我们报名25km的参赛者在凌晨二时多便搭巴士到Queensbay Mall起跑点集合。报名25km的共有七人，所以我们自称是七位依中英雄，当中只有我和靖婷是女侠。虽然我尽量有说有笑，然而却隐藏不了自己忐忑不安的心情，毕竟我根本没经历过长期练习，只是在长跑前几日在家居附近短跑几次而已，再加上朋友怀疑我的能力，多次怂恿我报名10km的路程，我希望我不会成为他们的笑柄。

25km路程真的不短，但我很庆幸自己没有抽筋，所以至少还能坚持到底。路途真的很遥远，我跑到半桥，早已上气接不了下气，却唯能自我安慰 ，说服自己继续跑下去。路途中，我与靖婷脱离了，结果只有独自跑下去。遇见了老壁虎鸿伟，真的很意外，也真的真的很高兴。与他交谈一番后，我从新振作起来，继续坚持跑下去，一直到终点。

我这胡涂蛋没真正到过终点，因粗心大意而直接弯入巴士停放的地方，幸好遇上国统他们。国统说我迟到了，将拿不到文凭，所以我干脆不去终点，直接上巴士休息了…凌晨5时启程，早晨9时抵达…虽然拿不到文凭，却感到很欣慰，更满意自己的表现，呵呵。至少，我证明，我可以！只要我说我能，我能！

不知我还会不会参加，只知我会紧紧的握好如今，不让它流逝。

一块儿…

这一年，不知为何与丽杏、以雯的感情特别的好，有什么值班或活动都说好一块儿去。

两次的Highway Duty，丽杏因有事而缺席一次。我们一到峨伦站岗，原先的羞涩很快的就被我们不太过分的“放肆”性格有所代替，与他们开始了一场接一场的口舌之战。这些峨伦的老朋友一向都以鸟话远近驰名，但我们这些依中的猴年可也不赖。自从获得了猴祖孙悟空的真传，我们的嘴巴可比刀锋还要尖利，而这几场鸟神猴神之间的斗嘴实说还蛮激烈精彩的…

我们吵着要看戏，结果他们就真的把整台电脑给搬了上来。六七人挤到电脑面前静静的看《死亡笔记》和《钱不够用2》，不时传来了几句冷笑话，蛮有趣的。随后，我们读读杂志，也有机会观赏那些大哥哥玩电脑游戏。他们真是的，都工作了，玩起游戏来却像长不大的小孩子一样…

我们第一次站岗就遇上了火灾，就在我们站岗地方的后边。大火冲天，乌黑的浓烟污染了整个天空，有点像在看戏的感觉…活了十几年，这可是我们第一次真正看过火灾，而此时的我们也不知所措，加上值班的负责人担忧我们的安危，不允许我们靠近那儿，所以我们只有当旁观者的份儿。

发现到峨伦的居民都乐于助人，而且之间的关系都蛮融洽的。木屋那一排发生了火灾，四周的居民都赶来帮忙，连一辆旧汽车都给搬到一旁去了，才不至于烧成废铁。峨伦消防员一到，便忙着向火神宣战，直往火堆“灌水”，而这场仗可打了近一小时，幸好无人伤亡。亲眼见到一名男士发阳颠，在圣越翰负责人的帮助下送去了医院。那男士因激动还对他们动了手，幸亏此时值班的男士们都是份量级的。有油层的保护，哪会有大碍？喀喀！火灭了，我们走近火场，烧焦味扑鼻，难受之极。见到到来采访的洁盈姐，也见到一名校园印度朋友－原来，是他阿姨家着了火…

那一天，我们也见到了辉文和心培。心培跌了摩托，伤了脚，结果只能坐在店外看路过的人潮。而这辉文还真够力，一见到我就开口闭口那几句，就像在华文补习时候一样。哼！下次再修理你这混蛋。救了人后，我们又专程去吃路旁的Rojak，不知什么，只知真是一级棒！

趁着以雯护送一名老婆婆到槟城医院，卓志用摩托载我去峨伦的佛学会那儿探望峨伦朋友，大家姐Helen还喂我吃这喝那，梃享受的。颖凡此时不在，所以只看到她的他…那晚，我们每人买了一杯沙冰，而我这嘴馋的，还买了两排巧克力，气得那出钱的“老爸”苦笑不得。呵呵…

东海岸之旅

学生欠老师的功课，一定要补交上；如今我欠了我的部落格一大堆功课，也总算是补交的时候了吧！六月至今，哇，真的欠了好多。。。

年中假期，去了彭亨登加楼还有吉兰丹。我个人不觉得很好玩，只是可贵在能与家人共享天伦之乐。奶奶与二姑一家加上大伯还有我们四人，共乘搭了两辆私家车，“浩浩荡荡”地往目的地出发，尽情的享受这四天三夜的连环旅游。

去了那么多地方，我最高兴的时分，莫过于住在关丹小别墅里了。建筑在海边，我们不需走几分钟便可看到海了。介于东海岸的关系吧，那儿的海浪格外“猛”，像望死成归的兵士那样，冲啊杀啊……呼吸着咸咸的海风，赤着脚在细沙上步行，让双脚沉入细致的沙石里，闭目静听海浪冲上岸发出的“沙沙”声……一切释然……平静，安然。

原本有机会看海龟下蛋，哪知多怪自己没有毅力，才等到一半就放弃回房大睡了。我等到十二点，海龟一点上岸……结果，看到的只有海龟留下的见面礼--它余留下来的足迹……

那晚，坐在摇床上，看着老弟与瑞士远亲打球，不知为何有点落寞的感觉……

先比个Pose,再笑一笑。拍个照，没烦恼…

天使离我们并不远……

误打误撞的加入了英语戏剧队，成了其中的15队员之一，也成了我忙碌中学生涯的起点。

准备道具一点都不简单，加上两幅各长达5米的画要上色，我们可说是真的鞠躬尽瘁了。或许我们达不到我们想象中的那样好，但是，我们真的真的很尽力了。

15名朋友当中，我真正熟悉的其实并不多，或许还需要一些时间和机遇。然而，虽然谈不上是莫逆之交，但他们拔刀相助的精神真的让我深深的感动不已…

弄丢手机是我的疏忽，但他们却没有发出一声的怨言，二话不说的到礼堂的每一个角落找寻，还用各自的手机播打我的手机号码，希望可以听到手机的震动声。整个找寻过程当中，五六架手机都一直在播打我的电话，从没停顿过，虽然当中只有一架可以成功拨通我的号码…看在眼里，心里感激之余，还真的很感激。虽然当时每个人都赶着要回家，但却没有一个人离开礼堂。每个人都在找寻，每个人都在努力，抱着希望手机还没被别人偷去。

手机最后是在一张椅子上发现的。回想起来还真的有点好笑，我们找了礼堂里的每一张椅子，也不知为何就是忽略了那一张，而那时候，大部分的队员都站在桌子旁播打我的号码，也不知为何他们就是听不到手机的震动声……嘘～真是吓坏了我…幸亏找到了，否则我真的不知该如何向父母交待…

看看手机的荧幕，20通未接电话…嗯…那是天使的来电…

-笔于6月14日

六月记

六月，温馨弥漫四周的一个月。
3号、4号、5号、10号，还有15号、23号和25号…
不知为何，朋友们总爱在这月份生日…
双子座，嗯，花心星座，很爽咩？很爽咩？
害我在短短几个星期内因为买礼物而破产…ble…

以后，我要读DIY书了…
做手工，既能表达心意，又可以避免浪费储蓄～///

那只是一出戏

今年的两个假期，我都没放假过。年头的假期，我为了NCO，为了一日营，可说是忙得不可开交。刚过的假期，除了有Kadet Kem，还有Drama的道具要赶。人家假期不用上学，我却在假期里每天上学…然而，回味一切，虽然有苦难言，但这一切的牺牲，却换来了中学生涯难以忘怀的回忆片段－而这，也算是对自己有一个交待吧？

今年的Kadet Kem，我们中四的都额外地珍惜，毕竟今年是我们的最后一年了。我们并没有像往年那样太过注重笔试。在意的，反而是那个过程。我们或许不是最守纪律的营员，但我们肯定是最高兴的一伙。四个讲座当中，我们聚在一起谈天说地、玩游戏，几乎没有把在前面说话的讲师放在眼里。我的笔记本里，充满了无关讲座的笔迹，当然也少不了几幅“废画”；而我的脑海里，装满了我身旁两个鸟人所说的每一句话、所做的每一个行动，还有我哭笑不得的表情…

夜月，柔和地普照即将入睡的大地，而刚听完讲座的我们，托着疲累的身子，往宿舍的方向走去。有人竞走，也有人步行，沿着宁静的湖水徐徐地走回去；道路上出现的影子，有一堆的，也有一对一对的…当时有月亮有湖水有道路也有主角配角，温馨、浪漫的气氛弥漫着整个夜景，一切完美得像一出戏…

无奈人生本来就是一出戏，而我们只是舞台上的演员们。不管是主角，还是配角，当台词说完了，当谢幕的时候到了，一切也就完了，一切也就成了过去，成了我们质疑到底是否真正曾经发生过的回忆片段。那些片段，似曾发生过，却又只似一场梦，那么地真实，却又那么地虚幻…

既然我们无法肯定那些片段是现实还是梦幻，我想，与其继续回味过去，不如好好的保握我们的如今拥有…

把三张双层床连接起来，再爬到上层去来个六人集会。
喂喂喂，那个小女孩为何笑得那么灿烂har～？

6月5日

今天是一个特别的日子，至少我认为这样…

所以，在今天还没成为过去之前，我想握紧最后十几分钟，对自己说，“半年考还有一天，加油哦！相信希望，也相信自己…”

无聊啦～～

我信。

我可以，静静的坐在你身边，陪伴你渡过不算长的空闲，不需要言语，不需要行动；
我可以，静静的跟随在你身后，在走廊上一前一后的走着，不需要特意的等待，也不需要行动上刻意的证明；
我也可以，静静的打从你课室经过，看你安静地望向我的模样…无声胜有声…

你很少给我承诺，因为你给的是惊喜；
你很少给我口头上的肯定，因为你给的是眼神的证明…

有很多时候，
我不开口言语，因为我知道，你明了；
你也不用行动证明，因为你知道，我深信…
其实真的，一个眼神的肯定就已经很足够了…

辩论K队

拿着RM150到Kbox来个辩论队庆工会，同时也为晴雯庆祝生日。第一次踏入Village Mall，心里莫名其妙地兴奋起来，或许由于这是我第一次进入这种地方K歌吧？

算得上五脏俱全的VIP房间里挤下了我们十一人，气氛顿时闹得热烘烘的。名誉上是K歌，实是去谈话，反正麦克风也只有两支，传来传去每人也唱不到一两首。尝试在拥挤的房间里跳《恋爱达人》，然而最终却以失败收场，不是这里相撞一下，便是那里钩到桌子或是电线。

从《今天你要嫁给我》到《新不了情》等，我们的狂笑声比歌声来得多，连伤感的歌也让我们唱成是快乐和高兴的歌曲。我尝试和善玮一起唱《一笑而过》，却因为一来忘词、二来唱不起而真的“一笑而过”，狂笑的把麦克风丢给楚扬。也不知他们闹什么的，居然挤成一堆的高唱《恋人未满》，然后就在善玮的带领下对着我们两人高喊“牵手！牵手！牵手…”口号，弄得我们一个个满头雾水…

吃着先前准备的水果蛋糕，心里涌起了莫名的幸福感－幸好我选择了辩论。我没有后悔，也不会感到害怕，因为我坚信，他们会时时刻刻的在我需要扶持的时候支持我…依中辩论队，加油！

假期配不配？

假期过了，人也变懒了，而我也差点就忘了这部落格…喀喀。

我的假期不是假期:从一日营忙到辩论比赛还有NCO，九天短假里的我根本就没放假。回想起来，我也真不相信自己居然熬过了这段“一天24小时也不够用”的日子。

一日营：
从筹备到闭幕，工委不知花了多少心血，多少泪滴。啃着食堂的Pattaya，绞尽脑汁思索节目的情景至今仍磨灭不去，回想起来还真有点不寒而栗。在营里当任纪律的我演技可一流，常表演变脸节目来“取悦”工委和“吓坏”营员。一会儿像只猴子那样跳上跳下的，活泼不已；一会儿却又像茶壶那样，把一只手叉在腰间rap“诗经”…习惯啦，反正女人都是善变的…

辩论比赛：
输掉辩论似乎早已成了定局，然而我还蛮珍惜我这最后一年的辩论生涯的。当时常常没进班的我们，似乎就成了图书馆讨论室的常客。六人躲进窄小的讨论室，忘了炙热的天气、忘了室中的霉味，陶醉在讨论的过程中…

NCO：
在别人的鼓励才下定决心去NCO的我幸好做对了选择…喀喀…考Sarjan不是一件很简单的事，不管谁对谁错最终都会是Sarjan的错，但我却没后悔，甚至怀念那三天…

以雯、丽杏和我三人晚上口口声说要温习，最终却抱着枕头谈心事的情景至今仍深深的烙印在脑海中。第二晚超越一小时的电话，每一个字词我都会紧紧地牢记，让它成为一段美好的回忆，而夜晚出去吃夜宵，最终却只买了一枝“乐乐”解饿的事情，随后就成了我们三人相遇必谈的笑话…

CPR考试、操步考试、和笔试，哇，只有你亲身试了才会明白什么叫“考试”…

一封信

致队友们，

抽到对垒新民那一队的时候，我们无不目瞪口呆，在座的各位无不哗然。

我们是对方眼中的威胁，是对方眼中的强手，而我们也都有同一个目标、同一个梦想，但是事实仍然是残酷的。当有一方是胜者的时候就意味着另一方是败家，不管多么激烈的竞争里最终还是要分出胜败来。

我们曾经对主办当局说过，我们两校往往在决赛才碰见，如今却要在初赛辩出一个答案来。我们都害怕，因为我们曾经在去年决赛里碰过，而我们两方也分别是去年的冠亚。

提出更换的是我们，要求不换的也是我们。我们挣扎了很久，我们想了很多次，最终还是作出了一个决定，不换。无奈、担忧…然而我们能做些什么。初赛出局，我们承受得起吗？我们过得了这一关吗？我不知道，只知道我们都会很拼很拼。

我对自己说，不管我们今年的第一次会不会也是最后一次，至少我知道我拼过、努力过、付出过。

为了梦想，为了依中，为了队友！

相约考试后

那天，我们一伙儿原本想去CS为创献庆祝这四年一次的生日，然而最终还是因为辩论而取消了这打算。

钱老师重返江湖，四点左右特地来学校打理一切有关辩论的事情。她微笑依然，说话轻而有力，让我们无不高兴，信心大增。她当场举办了几场轻松的淘汰赛，纯粹要我们针对给予的话题发言。

我们这一组拿到了“如何抒解中学生的压力”，然而我们表现平平，直到 “姐弟恋”这话题时才辩得头头是道，把自己的辩才发挥得淋漓尽致。“姐弟恋”这话题原本是属于第二组的，但我们毫不客气地发言，连老师也只能笑着摇头说我们对爱很有兴趣。

A和B由于穿了运动服，结果被我们说到变成是“情侣装”，气得有口难言。我和欣舫讲悄悄话，男的居然要来插嘴，结果我们在女方面前拿箭射他，问他要我们直截了当，还是要转弯抹角的说话。他选择了直截了当，结果我说：“你的位子不在这里，在前面。去吧！”，气得他顿时哑口无言。随后，他又要听“转弯抹角”的话，结果我边笑边说：“她在等你…”。忍无可忍之下，他脸一扳，走出了华文班，直到我们求他了才肯进来。

我们针对不同的话题发表了我们的看法和议论，整个过程很轻松、很搞笑，当中当然少不了“翻版华语”，就像楚扬的Mailei，还有云吞和叉烧（别出心裁的借代修辞法…swt…）。两小时的淘汰赛，是在笑声还有感触中流过的。

老师最后把我们分成了两组。我的组与去年没多大分别，只是创献回归了，而芷芊也终于肯留下和我们一起为最后一年拼搏。喀喀…但愿今年，我们的梦想能实现…

－我们曾经答应过，会因为对方而留下，所以别丢下我一人…－

情人节的运动会

在阳光猛照的草场上操步不是一件很享受的事情。我们穿着圣越翰制服，像一群傻瓜那样，傻傻的地站在草场中央。我心里不时地在期盼运动会的开幕仪式会马上成为过去，却又不断的在脑海里提醒自己不可东张西望、不可东摇西摆。

带着一名队员到阴凉的地方休息，虽然听到老师无意地嘲笑声，然而我却没失望、也没惭愧，因为我知道，她真的很尽力了。比起那些不断寻找借口缺席的队员，我真的不能不佩服她那全力以赴的精神…

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操步后，我们很多连休息的时间也免了，手里拿着水瓶，匆匆地往站岗的地方走去。我、欣舫、俊阳、丽杏和炎威被安排到我们所谓的“榕树下”站岗。

我们的心情是快乐的，只有欣舫是苦闷的。我们嘻嘻哈哈的当儿，唯有他的神情是严肃的，双眼不停的望着草场对面，像在寻找着某人似的。我们不断的拿美女之事嘲讽他，连俊阳也不知从哪儿弄出了一句经典：“我在茫茫的人海中努力的寻找你那熟悉的背影…”呵呵…

然而，口头上的讥讽并不代表我们的心中话。其实，我们心里都很明白，逼迫他留下站岗也不是办法，所以我对他说，若真的想离开，我们是不会逞强的，尽管走吧。只是，他微微的摇摇头表示不要。最后，离开的居然不是欣舫，而是丽杏和炎威（哼！没义气…）。我不能否认，在他们的一离去，树下便也很快的恢复了之前的宁静。哈哈～。

我们三个坐在一起，静静的听着周杰伦的《安静》、《我不配》和《退后》，然而心里却是想着不同的心事…我把圣越翰的“百宝箱”当枕头，躺在褐色的枯叶间，背着他们两人静静的哭。我不知道自己为什么会哭，只知道自己很脆弱很脆弱…

分享心事是在最后20分钟才开始的。时间很短暂，我们却谈得很真诚。俊阳说他不相信欣舫一副纯真纯真的模样居然会有那么多的心事。吓！所谓人不可貌相啊…我自己也从没想到，俊阳本身也会有那么多心事。Swt…

我们不舍得离开，因为就像俊阳所说的那样，我们还有好多好多心事撇在心中，需要别人来倾听…

有时候，一错过就是永远错过了…

如果你没改变，
如果那场梦不是梦…

林宥嘉－你是我的眼

你是我的眼-林宥嘉

如果我能看得见

就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜

就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手

如果我能看得见

就能驾车带你到处遨游

就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱

如果我能看得见

生命也许完全不同

可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的 都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑

你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝

是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天

我望向你的脸

却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘 忘了掀开

你是我的眼 带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼 带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼 带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼 让我看见这世界就在我眼前

在超级星光大道里称霸的他，总共拿了8次的满分…

团聚谈星光

趁着新年的来临还有妆玟的回归，我们辩论队也在创献家来个小团聚，想借此与刚从新加坡回来度假的妆玟见个面、谈个天。

哪知道，这女主角居然放飞机，缺席了，而芷芊也因为必须回家乡而没来。好哇你们两个，居然舍得抛弃我们四个。哼！不管了，你们两人欠我们每人一封红包…喀喀～

我们四人原本是想讨论有关辩论和学会活动的事情，然而当善玮用创献的电脑打开超级星光大道的视频，我们便目不转睛的看着电脑，欣赏这节目。

我们很不客气，一边欣赏星光大道，一边吃着创献家人准备在新年期间招待客人的糕饼。哈哈。我们很有口福，品尝到了各种各样的甜品和糕饼，结果到最后，除了创献，我们三人的肚子都是圆滚滚的。（呵呵…难怪我们那么喜欢到他家作客…）

我第一次观赏星光大道，然而不用浪费多少时间就知道其中的某些歌星了，包括刘明峰、谢震廷，还有杨宗伟和林宥嘉…而我能够记得他们的原因其实很简单罢了，那就是当我看到刘明峰的时候会想起何铭丰；看到杨宗伟的时候会想到李宗伟；看到林宥嘉的时候更一直联想到李尤嘉…swt…

创献的电脑常成为我们的焦点。

我不知道评判如何分辨好歌手之中的最好歌手，因为对我来说，他们不管唱什么歌都会是好听的。我们几个很糟糕，常说林宥嘉唱歌的口型很古怪，动不动就嘟起嘴巴，又说那13岁的谢震廷很有playboy的风范，而且脸部表情很丰富…

然而对于他们洪亮、有爆发力又动人的歌声，我们真的好佩服，佩服得五体投地…